It was sept. 8 of current year, the day before my birthday. Nagkataong walang klase. Meron pala, isa lang, 3-5 pm. Technical sketching. Hehe..
Natural hindi muna ako uuwi. Ang regular uwian time ay 9pm. Matagal pa yun. Kaya nagpasya akong gumala. Hehe.
Pumunta ako sa Fullybooked (Bonifacio High Street sa The Fort). Yun lang ‘yung lugar na matatawag kong heaven sa earth.
Parang regalo ko na rin sa sarili ko, tinapos ko ‘yung librong kinaaadikan ko.. Ang pangatlong book sa Hunger games Trilogy: Mocking jay!
So, I ride(?) the escalator going up the second floor. Then, I noticed na hindi naka-tie ‘yung left shoelaces ko. Hinayaan ko lang, ‘coz I planned to tie it once I have taken a seat.
But then, nung paalis na akong escalator, the shoelaces got stucked. Kinain ng escalator ‘yung end ng isang shoelace ko. Dyahe! I crouched down and pulled my shoelace as hard as I could. Nahihiya na ako,may paparating ng isang lalaki and he saw what happened. I pulled the shoulace with all my strength and embarrassment.
Finally, I got it out. And decided to tie my shoelaces.
As I sit down the couch, a thought occurred. Sa simula pa lang alam ko ng tanggal ang shoelaces ko pero hinayaan ko pang lumala ang sitwasyon.
And I realized, that’s what I’ve been doing for all of my life. I wanted so much thill and rush that I’m so ready to take the consequences without even thinking clearly. Or kung pinag-isipan ko man, ganun pa din, pipiliin ko pa rin ‘yung risky side. Masyadong adventurist! kainis!
Naisip ko nung araw na ‘yun, tommorow will be my birthday. Another year will open up to me.. Would I change myself?
Honestly, nagulat ako sagot ko. Isang malaki at malinaw na…
Yup, its a no!
Maybe changes would come naturally, life would give me lessons to learn. Pero if I change myself out of the blue, which is by the way no sense for me to do, I know I would not be happy.
‘Coz I am happy taking risks, learning from them, motivates myself, feel the rush and be excited about the next ones to come.
But I know I should be careful, baka next time hindi lang shoelaces ko ang makain ng escalator…♥