I don’t know what to do. I feel stupid by things you’ve done. I feel jealous of people I do not know, have never seen, and don’t know existed.
What hurts is that I know you’ll never change. You like how you flirt with them. and you always thought I would never find out. I feel more stupid wishing somehow you’ll learn how to hide those things. But it won’t make any difference.
What’s worst of it all is that I can’t let you go. I’m too afraid of the future. Too afraid to be left alone. That I will not be loved again. That I will never find something better. And that I will never be happy.
I wish someday you and I will finally see what I’m worth.
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