I Don’t Want the D

No, not that D.

D as in depression.

It feeds every one. Rich or poor, adult or teen. Even the happiest person you see. It picks anyone it can.

Unlike most people, it does not feel like another person is inside you wanting to go out, No.

It feels like nothing is inside you anymore.

You can’t feel anything, can’t be excited about anything. You once cared so much, but now, you just don’t give the slightest damn about anything.

The things that made you feel happy, things that make you excited, things that you crave, all of these things don’t have an impact with you anymore. They are just things meant for other people. The ones that don’t understand there is no point to it all.

Hours go by like a torture, you just want it all to stop. You can’t take the feeling of not feeling at all.

I don’t want this D.

But it found me and it won’t go away.

I often find myself staring at the blue-green veins on my wrist. Tracing it carefully, pinning the thickest one with my fingers and taking in a deep breath.

I never wanted this D.

I tried to sleep it off. Taking sleeping pills by pairs, then more and more everyday. No matter how many I take, I still wake up.

I never wanted this D.

I just want it to end.



The Gift of the Ordinary : A Book Review

Are you missing on the gifts of the ordinary?

Do you realize how much you are missing in life when you let those days pass by without seizing the gifts they offer?

The Gift of the Ordinary

Lines that will echo even through you sleep. Admit it, we always worry ourselves everyday before going to sleep. We regret things we could have done much more than the things we already did. Especially the chances we did not take.

But before we proceed, here are some formalities 🙂

Author: Chris Dao-Anis

Book Title: The Gift of the Ordinary

40 Episodes of Learning to Live Extraordinarily in Life’s Ordinary Encounters

ISBN 978-971-011-743-7

About the Author

Chris aims to empower his fellow young minds to live life beyond the ordinary.

He hails from the mountains of Kibungan in the province of Benguet. He attended elementary and high school in his hometown and then moved to Baguio City for his college degree in accountancy. Presently, he works with a private company in Makati City.

CPA, Toastmaster, and a good listener.

Also author of the eBook “Live Your Life, Young Mind! Be guided by the Six Strings every Young Mind Should Play”


As a girl who loves fiction, seeing this inspirational book made me think twice. The intriguing title will bug you. Gift of the Ordinary? Should I be making a title more SUPER or with more impact?

But the trap got me. I was reading the first few pages and I suddenly find myself staring at nowhere, reflecting.

Unlike typical novels with twists and a plot, the message here is clear and straight to the point. In everyday situations, we are either unwrapping or ignoring our gift. It will make you think, “How am I extraordinary?”

In 40 simple stories, 40 different lessons are to be cherished. Varying from personal development, personal finance, love life, professional goals, and spiritual faith. A little bit of everything, yet, so much more.

This is the kind of book that everyone should be reading periodically over and over again. It doesn’t matter if you’ve come across that episode for the Nth time, you will gain a new perspective every time.

It basically consists of things we do not learn from school. Things we know by heart, experience, or by other people’s advice that we forget – or pretend to not know. Ups and downs, feelings most of us would rather not talk about, finally faced and shared.

One of those books you wished you read when you were younger. But it is never too late!


Highly recommended, no doubt! One of the few treasures in life worth every penny (or peso). To share with family, friends, children, and great grand children.

Have you ever had a book you secondly-doubted to buy and end up going home without it? Then will haunt you as days passed, “I should have bought that book”, you say. Well, don’t let this book slap you with the irony! 😀

Hall Pass : A Movie Review

Hall Pass, a movie released last 2011, comedy with a pang of truth, is what we have watched last rainy Saturday. And by we, I mean my 17 year old younger brother and 14 year old younger sister. It went from funny to awkward, to holy guacamole.

Starred by Owen Wilson and Jason Sudeikisi, best friends and both married, are too “Jumpy” when it comes to women that they are their wives’ pain in the buttocks. ( Gosh! How conservative I am! )

It is a movie that shows brutal truth to its viewers. Like how when man gets old, that every achievement has to be bragged about. Or how some men (boys) can’t really control the sexual urge, even just to look at women’s butts.

So their wives gave them a Hall Pass (thus the title), wherein they could go off from marriage in a week. They could do whatever they want. And of course, boys being boys, bragged on how they will be laid in this 7 days. While the ladies act normal: playing cool, got invited to parties and beach games, the other one actually got laid.

It was mixture of that and some really shocking but horribly funny scenes. Like when Owen Wilson slept on the gym Jacuzzi and was being sucked when 2 naked guys rescued him. Their male organ was actually viewed here. One black man with rather huge “thing”. And whats actually funny is the Caucasian man’s Cheese Curls size worm hanging. We went from Whoa! to Ahahaha! (*stomach hurts and tears falling*) kind of funny.

It went to just having the boys realize what its like to be, and have the women to choose whether they would give up on their love and invest on a new one.

It was awkward (especially watching with siblings), but it was that kind of movie that will give you something to think about and appreciate from that moment on.

Good for couples, partners, married ones with that dying spark, or just a hopeless romantic.

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